Thursday, 3 April 2014

curiosity ..


It started in the wolf cubs. We were the 3rd St Marylebone wolf cub pack. We met once a week in the basement hall of Paddington Congregational Chapel.

On that particular evening we had visitors. One of them asked me a question about the cubs. I didn’t know the answer and said “We haven’t been told about that.” ‘Ah,” said the lady, “but you could find out for yourself.”

At the time I was a little taken aback. The idea of finding out for myself was quite new to me. But it set off a spark of curiosity that is still alive. 

Later in my life, Egon Wellesz reinforced this notion. What I discovered for myself would be far more valuable than relying on textbooks reproducing secondary sources.

francis cameron, oxford, 03 april 2014


Tuesday, 1 April 2014

On reading Penelope Fitzgerald's 'The Beginning of Spring'


At the end of chapter nine I have put the book to one side. I go onto the web to see what others have to say about the complexities of writing fiction. I recall the label 'literary fiction' and I find a plethora of descriptions and definitions, some of which are diametrically opposed to each other. Not terribly helpful, though two observations are provocative.


"Literary fiction is the kind of writing which wins a Booker Prize."


Something worth thinking about. And I have half-a-dozen such prizewinners on my shelves. I started, but I never finished any one of them. They didn't move me. They didn't communicate. Ensconced in their ivory tower.

"You have to have studied at a university before you can understand literary fiction."

I absorb the implications of that thought. It's partway to explication.

I turn to chapter ten. I begin to read - slowly. It becomes hypnotic.

My conscious mind alerts. I'd been entranced by sequences of words, appreciating them as precious literary workmanship. And there they remain. Words on the page. Cerebral. Remote. Rarefied. I long for a shared experience of real flesh and blood characters. I want to be part of the sights, the sounds, the smells, that surround them. I yearn to be transported into the creations of the author's imagination. 

For now .. I rest. Earthbound. Unmoved.

francis cameron, oxford, 31 march 2014


Tuesday, 25 February 2014

from the open steppe to the promised land


from the open steppe to the promised land

Near the end of the 1970s I played Pong. Then came the concentrating excitement of Space Invaders.

Come the summer of 1981, I’d completed my postgraduate year and begun to look around. A Faculty notice caught my eye. Computing for Postgraduates. And top of the list was Fortran for Beginners. I was a postgraduate. I wanted to learn computing. I was a beginner. I signed on for the week’s course. On Tuesday morning the instructor wrote on the board c = c + 1. Oh dear! Not the kind of maths we did at school. Rather than admit my ignorance, I kept silent. By Thursday afternoon I understood. I was beginning to learn how to instruct a computer.

I stayed  on for a second week. This was simple and straightforward. We did BASIC in the Oxford Research Machines version. I revelled in printing out my results on a machine which patiently debouched lines of print on perforated sheets as wide as a roll of wall paper. I was hooked. 

I bought a Sinclair Spectrum as soon as it came on the market. Now I could spend hours programming at home. 48K. Color if you output to a TV. I wrote a simple home accounts program. I composed computer music. I squared and cubed. Took the Fibonacci series as far as it would go.

Rushed out to buy a Sinclair QL when Uncle Clive demonstrated one at an exhibition. Not the wisest thing to do! But there was a good set of applications. Word Processor. Spreadsheet. Database. and Graphics. And a publisher paid me what I thought was a fabulous sum for converting his Artificial Intelligence programs from IBM Basic to Sinclair’s idiosyncratic formulation. 

Enter Alan Sugar and the Amstrad PC. 640K of RAM. MSDOS on a set of 5.25” floppies. I learned to program in C on that machine and so became part of the team at the university’s computer teaching centre. 

I kept pace with Windows as each version came on the scene. I like Win7 but my Acer all-in-one is 4 years old and starting to show signs of decline. I bought a Win8 laptop - and was soon glad to pass it on to one of the grandchildren. 

Then the big decision.

I haunted a local Mac outlet. Waiting for Mavericks. Just before Christmas I signed the chit and came away with an iMac. I’m reminded of those long ago days when my unit handed in our trusty Bedford three-ton trucks and were issued  with spanking new QLs. Rolls-Royce engines with four-wheel drive on a separate shift. Noble steeds.

Bliss. It’s like joining a rather special club .. ..


francis cameron
oxford, 25 februaary 2014

Friday, 6 September 2013

growing up at the RAM



One of my earliest memories is of myself as a small boy sitting on a high stool and enjoying the sounds as I pressed down the keys of my aunt’s Dale Forte upright piano. I guess I was just two or three years old. And that may have been why my mother began to teach me to play. When I was four years old, the two of us walked onto a concert platform to play Winter’s Ride, a duet for four hands. A year later I played one of Mozart’s solos for a similar audience.

Then my mother took me each week for more formal lessons with Miss Beryl Knight who rented a tall narrow studio at the back of Mr Moon’s music instrument shop in Seymour Place. One of the most important lessons she taught me was to look up - and not at my fingers - when I played from memory.

My association with the Royal Academy of Music began when I was a pupil at St Mary’s (Church of England) Elementary School. For a few weeks a student from the RAM came to teach us singing. Before she left, she handed out leaflets to those of us who might be interested in joining Margaret Donnington’s Junior School at the RAM. My parents filled in a form. I was interviewed. I was accepted. Miss Knight was devastated. She had expected to take me through all the grades of the Associated Board and then prepare me for my Wigmore Hall debut.

We Junior Exhibitioners were a happy lot. I went once a week after school (the RAM was so near to my home) for a piano lesson with a sub-professor and again on Saturday mornings for various classes. Once in each term we played our solos at a Saturday afternoon concert for an invited audience in the Duke’s Hall.

I was three months short of my twelfth birthday when war with Germany began on Sunday the 3rd of September 1939. My younger brother and I passed the next three years as evacuees in Caerphilly. I had splendid piano lessons from Clifford Lewis in Cardiff and began to learn to play the church organ with David Williams who was blind.

We came back to London in time for the autumn term of 1942 and in the following January, when I was just 15, I was engaged as organist and choirmaster at St Peter’s Church, Fulham – very much a part of the Anglo-Catholic wing of the Church of England. For me, it was a completely new experience. In later years I looked back on it as a splendid preparation for conducting opera. From my organ loft, perched high up on the south wall of the chancel, I looked down on the liturgical action with its solemn choreography and kept my ears open, ready to pick up the spoken and visual cues. The ‘remuneration’ was £35 per annum.

Back at Margaret Donnington’s Junior School at the RAM, some of us were now Special Talent Exhibitioners. I was fortunate enough, and very grateful for piano lessons with Madeleine Windsor and organ lessons with Douglas Hopkins.

This rather fruitful episode came to an unexpected end a little way into 1944 when I began my first full-time professional engagement. I was the pianist in The Solid Eight, an ENSA concert party on tour, entertaining some of the Canadian troops preparing to join the war in northern Europe. I look back with glee on this precious experience of show-biz. The nightly ‘on stage’ to live audiences several hundreds strong. It made an immense difference to my playing.

And so, inevitably, once more to the RAM. This time as a full-time student. On our first morning Sir Stanley Marchant spoke to us about our future careers as professional musicians, the joys and responsibilities ahead of us.

Douglas Hopkins was a fine teacher who took a personal interest in the well-being of his students. I learned my trade in his choir training class. We’d be faced with a previously unseen copy of an item from the choral repertoire. He’d call one of us out to conduct – at sight – another to play the keyboard accompaniment. Saved my life on many a crucial occasion in later years.

In my individual lessons he was gently encouraging. When I was influenced by new ideas flowing in from the real world outside, he stood by, correcting only when I went too far from the acceptable. With his gentle guidance I won the Henry Richards Prize for organ playing in 1946.

In 1947 I was called up for National Service in the army. In 1949 I went up to Oxford and came down three years later with an Honours Degree in Music. Egon Wellesz had been a great inspiration, assuring me that my own research and the conclusions I reached were more valuable than dependence on secondary source textbooks.

The 1950s saw me playing a small part in a UNESCO programme of international school holiday exchange visits, then moving on to grammar school music teaching. All the while playing the organ for church services on Sundays and Holy Days and taking choir practice at least once a week.

Towards the end of that decade my appointment as Master of the Music at Westminster Cathedral was accompanied by an invitation to join the professorial staff of the RAM.

The 1960s were wonderful times to be in London and to teach at the RAM. Carnaby Street positively fizzled. But it wasn’t just the bright new fashions that attracted attention. All sorts of new ideas were in the air. The Thursday Concerts on the BBC Third Programme introduced me to Schoenberg Webern Berg and a plethora of forward looking composers and performers, while the Beatles and the Rolling Stones captivated wider audiences. We endeavoured to play Bach as his contemporaries might have played him, then modified our performance to bring him closer to our modern audience. Should we play the Widor Toccata at the composer’s metronome mark, or should we take it a little faster? These were questions we asked ourselves and resolved every time we played.

Of course we were a minority, and even at the RAM a majority preferred to teach in the old traditional ways.

As my fortieth birthday came nearer I realised I stood on the brink. I too could go on doing the same things in the same way for the next twenty-five years. And then, one Sunday, the Observer and the Sunday Times carried display advertisements for the new position of Assistant Director at the New South Wales Conservatorium of Music in Sydney, Australia. A new chapter was about to begin ..

francis cameron, oxford, 06 september 2013


Thursday, 28 February 2013

memories 1938 & 1939

MEMORIES OF MERCERS’ (part one)

the interview

I was just ten years old when my godfather took me to the Mercers’ School. He was deputising for my father who had other commitments. In the headmaster’s study I met Mr R W Jepson, MA. Perhaps the quintessential headmaster with a pair of pince nez.

I remember little of the interview apart from the comprehension test. Mr Jepson handed me a couple of paragraphs to read and then went on talking to my godfather. I quickly read through the text then looked up. Mr Jepson asked me one or two questions then turned to the mule at the heart of the passage. What did I know about the characteristics of a mule? I remembered something I’d heard on Children’s Hour. “It kicks in all directions.” The two men roared with laughter. I was in.


1938 & 1939

So, in January 1938, I presented myself in Form IIA. That first morning was occupied with the varia of a new term. Did we all have our health certificates? What arrangements were we making about midday meals? Were we going to pay for school dinners? or did we propose to bring sandwiches?

One by one, we were questioned. I was the last on the list. The 16th boy in a class designated for a maximum of 15. I replied in the demotic of my London home. “I’m gunner ‘ave me dinner in school.” Mr R W H D Murray gave forth a stream of withering invective. How contemptible, how utterly contemptible it was to mutilate the King’s English. From that moment on, so it appeared to me, I could do nothing right in Mr Murray’s eyes. I was made to feel unwanted. Outside the Pale. A boy whose fees were being paid by a friend of the family. A boy whose idiolect deformed the purity of the English tongue.

I knew no algebra. Mr Tabbard (sp?) invited me to join his after school class for boys who needed additional tuition. Many years later, as an Old Boy, I was able to thank him in person for his encouragement.

When the next term began I was in Form IIB with Mr K B Rowsell. An ideal teacher. I became accepted. In the class Orders I usually had top marks. My speech patterns changed into such conformity I was voted to represent the class in an elocution competition. (‘Many a time and oft. In the Rialto you have rated me. About my moneys and my usances. .. ..’)

Towards the end of that Summer Term, we were called to an assembly in the school hall. Should there be a State of Emergency, we would be evacuated from London. We should take refreshments for the journey. Dried fruit and currants were good. Chocolate was bad. It made you thirsty.

It was the year of Mr Chamberlain getting out of that little aeroplane and waving a sheet of paper above his head. It was the year of the Munich Agreement.

My transition to the 3rd form was smooth. Now I sang in the school choir and played violin in the orchestra.

A few weeks before the end of the Summer Term of 1939, we bought and sold our textbooks, as was the custom, and  moved up to the Lower IVth. I elected to drop Latin and begin German with ‘Pussy’ Moss. I still remember those first few pages of Deutsches Leben Erste Teil. It was the only actual tuition in German I ever received.

ethos

If I should die, think only this of me:

That there’s some corner of a foreign field

that is forever England.

The Great War was still with us. We lived in its shadow. The terrible losses of 1914 - 1918 still permeated. Whenever the family gathered, the old men would talk of Gallipoli and the Somme. dulce et decorum est pro patria mori. The insidious lines from Horace lurked in every churchyard. But they never taught us of Wilfred Owen and ‘The old Lie’. Our ethos was still of preRaphaelite medieval knights in shining armour riding to defend All that was great and good. We should treasure our heritage as English Gentlemen. And the natives in the far flung corners of our Great and Glorious Empire would forever be grateful for our presence. That, and the command to Conform, is my memory of Mercers’ before that September when the curtain went up on Act Two of War with Germany.

© francis cameron, oxford, 28 february 2013

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